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My immediate reaction was why was he calling me at 7:00 pm on a Friday on Labor Day weekend but I knew. Quinlan’s soft voice on the other end of the phone. It was a Friday night at 7:00 pm approximately when my phone rang. It is a much more positive date for me to cling to, so why the sudden clawback to my diagnosis date. Despite still needing radiation and more surgery after my chemo was finished, the date that is etched firmly in my brain – much like the birthdates of each of my children, is my chemoversary. My focus has always been on my “chemoversary” or the date that my medical oncologist used as my “survivorship” date, the date in which I finished the last of my chemotherapy treatments.

I have yet to pinpoint what triggered this sudden change or recollection of this date.

The funny thing is I never thought about my diagnosis date much until the last couple of years. A portion of my brain is set on a loop, replaying the events of that day in a way that the Harry Potter marathon plays on the FreeForm channel on TV. The memories of August 31 st are so profound, the details so concise and clear, it is as if the day happened yesterday. Ten years ago, was the day I heard the horrific words, “You have cancer.” Ten years ago, I locked myself in my master bath with my husband as the recognizable hospital number rang on my cell phone and I knew….I just knew. Where is the bottle of Tums to coat the emotional distress?Īugust 31 st, 2007 was my own personal “D-Day” and for some reason, the last two D-Days of mine have been a negative memory that has caused the aforementioned uncertainty. The discomfort and uneasiness has me seeking for relief. There it sits, like a lead weight or a heavy matzo ball in the bottom of my stomach.

Yes, usually fun and full of the last of summer events. The uncertainty was different than my usual behavior patterns.Īugust 31 st, you say? What is the big deal about that date? Labor Day weekend. Was this my typical drive to push myself to achieve my current list of goals? Was this all that has been going on at work? Was this my need to get the kids situated and back into the fall and school swing of things? No. My thoughts have been in overdrive again. I racked my brain for what could possibly be making me uneasy. Sure, I have a lot going on but nothing that is out of the ordinary. I was not sure what the cause of my edginess was and my family accused me of being “hangry” and needing to eat more.

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